Day 12

went out to fix my laptop

when i see my laptop

the moments that you used to switch my laptop on for me

recharge it for me

watch heroes together with me

some stephen chow with sis

reminds me again of you

went karaoke with alice and choonwai

reminds me of your last chinese new year spent together with us

im glad we didnt spend it like we always did

some jay chou and wilber

and it reminds me again of you

love you

Day 10

its still tough

like it did

went out with friends

a tea session

reach home

looked up

the light of your room is not switched on

opened the gate

all by myself

unlike those old days

that you used to open them up for me

with sleepy eyes

and grunts on me

walked upstairs

your room door is opened

and empty

i feel like crying

but

tears are not coming out

Day 8

a friend of you drop by

he was surprised

like i did

it is still tough

mom is a lil bit better than yesterday

dad came home early today

i went to college today

sis stayed at home watch tv today

was in studio when we were arranging the toys

then

i found a lot of toys that we once owned

we once fought for

we once played together

we once shared

i think that im missing you more and more

Love You

Day 7

Dad spoke of his work today

Mom spent her day working

it is tough

when i see the aquarium

its so dirty

you wouldnt let it happen

it has been a rainy day over here

reminds me again

of you

fetching us on and off the car with an umbrella

when we r heading out for our regular sunday dinner out session

this time around

a person less

it will not be easy

Love you

Day 6

it is still tough

you know? 

when i see mom's face

when mom is cooking our dinner

when dad is heading to work in the morning

when dad reaches home and no one opens his door

everythin reminds me of you

we went out to a cafe

you know?

the one nearby our house

that you have told me about a year end part time job that you have interviewed

the shop that has just opened

i want to tell you how nice it is

how crowded it is

everything reminds me of you

mom once said that she dreamt of you

she cried because she said that it was just a glance

and she saw sorrow on your face

are you really feeling sad?

i feel sorry...yet

i cant do anything besides thinking of you

and it is repeating every single minute

the only thing i can do is...

to tell you how much i love you

tell mom how much i love her

tell dad how much i love him

tell sis how much i love her

you left...but please bless them

they feel guilty for everything that has happened

both of us know that its bad for them

love you